Be Here

“Is he worth it?”

The communication continues. Amplified. It is the loudest voice in my head. What would I wear to meet his parents? The most ridiculous thoughts cascade across my brain at the most inopportune times. He is exactly 2408 miles away. 3 hours behind. Light years away from my immediate world. But then at the same time he is everywhere. He buzzes away in my pocket while I’m on a date. His voice is tucked inside my purse while I’m at work. His words are on my computer screen late at night, early in the morning, somewhere in between. Go away. Stay. Stay there. Be here.

… is he worth it?